relationship.

I really did want to keep this blog for and about my relationship WITH God.

However, I feel ALOT better after getting my thoughts down.

I've been dating my boyfriend for the last year and a half. We have been friends for about 2 years prior to dating. My boyfriend is black and I'm white, KABOOM interracial couple. (eh)

OVER the past few months I've read TWO different articles from two different sources. (in this case magazines)
1.) Children's Health Article- written by a white Irish guy on his mixed children
2.) Essence Magazine Article- written by a black woman on interracial dating

The first article talked about his worries/hopes for his two infant children who are a beautiful boy and a girl, who ALSO happen to be of mixed Irish and Haitian descent. The bottom line of this article was he rather his children inherit traits like kindness from him/his family than carry on their blue eyes. And the one thing that struck at my heart was how it's the 21ist century and yet when he introduced his family to his black girlfriend they LOVED her, but when they were about to get married it was a completely different story. His family asked, "Well what about your (future) children?" and he was baffled by them implying there would be something "wrong" with them for being both black and white.....

The second was about a black woman talking about her disgust for interracial dating and how non-black women are "stealing" "taking" all the perfectly good black men away from where they belong: with the perfectly good black women. And how non-black women have all these options of people to date, while black women only have black men.


I'm just so tired ALREADY to deal with this. to even think about this. We ALWAYS have people glaring at us when we are together out in public. Old white guys openly stare down my boyfriend (such as my grandpa) and black girls look at my boyfriend, like i'm not even there...

Then theres the incident on my birthday. We were out shopping at Macy's and this black woman walks right up to my boyfriend and starts telling him how handsome he is and how she has such a beautiful daughter who would love him....in front of me.

it's so hard for to have anything positive in my heart. i feel replacable. i feel stupid. i feel sometimes like, "why am i even dating him?"

I'm JUST a white girl, that he happens to love, but to everyone else. thats not enough. I'm merely a WHITE harlot stealing their man....