yesterday night I went to my first meeting of this Christian group on campus. And honestly, I'm so glad. I really do need to make/meet people who believe in the same things I do.

it was nice, because their was a panel of teachers/people/student answering questions people had about Christians/Christianity. DEFINITELY got me thinking...things like, "am I wrong for believing in this?" "Should I believe this?" etcetc.

whenever i'm in a room full of christians and hearing the word of God I get this surge of warm tingliness throughout my entire body. and i just know in my heart it's not some weird coincidence. and i know God is there and i believe. (the same thing happened at my first Metro church service)

and then theres the fact i just feel so many different things at once. and i even want to cry.
for my mistakes, out of love, joy, hope....

i can say i never believed before. but now God has transformed me and made me believe. out of all people. ( i guess if I were him, I would have found me amusing with all my boldness, doubt, mockery, than after awhile I'd just be like, "hey, that's not funny anymore...")

i'm trying so hard to have more love in my heart. for everyone.